It's all in your head

I wake up as miserable I was at night.

I feel so weak 

I have anxiety and I feel myself relapsing into depression

I was always in a constant battle with anxiety

but this time it won, 

it has taken control of me,

paralysed my limbs and numbed my body

But it's all in my head, all in my head

while all my friends make new friends

I sit alone on my bed, lights off

tears streaming down my face

'you're pathetic' says a voice in my head

'you never go to any parties, what a loser'

maybe they're right

but it's not my fault, I say in defence

and a flashback begins of all my worst moments

But it's all in my head, all in my head

Shit, I need to go to college

I need to get out of bed somehow,

you can do this,

As I enter the class and I feel a thousand eyes looking at me,

'they didn't even notice' i say to make myself feel better

I sit next to the wall,

everyone takes their seat but no one sits beside me

I'm the only one sitting alone, 

'you're a fucking loner' a voice says

I feel myself about to burst into tears but
I hold the feeling until after class

but it's all in my head, all in my head

I can't stop comparing myself 

to my friends, my brother and my parents,

I love them 

but when I look myself, I ask

Why can't I be normal? I'm so fucking abnormal

I'm a disappointment

but it's all in my head, all in my head

I've never been in a relationship

because my self-esteem is so low

it's almost non-existent 

'they wouldn't want you for long.' the voices echo in my he-

but it doesn't matter because...

you know, it's all in my head, all in my head

I'm eighteen now, 

People are supposed to have the time of their life at this age,

For me, days just keep passing by like the wind,

and I stand at the same place

feeling absolutely nothing as my world shatters

how many times will you fight it? 

there comes a time when you just give up

I should have known, I'm just a depressed soul. 

But it's all in my head, all in my head,